It’s a very complicated relationship I have with this man; I am simultaneously grateful to him and seriously angry with him. And I am scared to leave him.
Suffering
Joy, Faith, Hope, Love, Peace & Rock Bottom
This was the week of Rock Bottom, so there’s no place to go, except up. After last week’s chemotherapy on Thursday, I developed debilitating weakness, dizziness, and shortness of breath. I am extremely weak and oxygen deprived because my red blood cell count is low, and therefore, the oxygen in my blood is also low. …
Cancer in 2018 America
I’m halfway through chemotherapy and my vision has drastically worsened. Can’t see out of my contacts and wearing them is suddenly very uncomfortable. Can’t see out of my old eyeglasses either; I’m guessing it’s because the glasses are at least two prescriptions old. Vision changes are sometimes a side-effect of chemotherapy. Yesterday, I went to … Continue reading Cancer in 2018 America
Gratitude in Suffering
Suffering and Gratitude Today was the first of the next four Taxol chemotherapy sessions I will have over the next eight weeks. The first four A/C chemotherapy sessions have been emotionally, physically and spiritually grueling. Three weeks ago after my third A/C, I contracted severe illness and complications including toxic granulation, anisocytosis, macrocytosis, stomatocytes and … Continue reading Gratitude in Suffering
Life In Introspection 