Every. Single. Day. I fail, sometimes spectacularly in some aspects; and yet I am STILL HERE on this planet for the reasons only He knows, to give, to surrender more and more - my health, my relationships, my career, all my plans, my goals, my entire life… everything I have. And only after I do that, comes the Peace.
Disco Kroger
Monday… Exhausted and cranky. This morning I had my 24th radiation session; it comes with a painful and itchy rash, and the entire area is swollen and hot to the touch - has been for about a week. Some areas are weeping where blisters have opened. Joint and bone ache, hips and knees are a … Continue reading Disco Kroger
Those Hibernating Bears
My bilateral mastectomy surgery went well according to the surgeon. There are few complications except for the large, hard and uncomfortable remaining hematomas, and this annoying stupid drain that still bleeds red after five weeks. My post-surgery pathology report revealed three, small tumors containing a small percent of cancer cells that didn’t light up in my January 2019 PET.
Why Cancer Sucks Up All My Time (or what I did so far today)
6:30 am - I wake up in a serious panic because in just 12 more days I will be having both of my breasts surgically removed. Simultaneously I rehash in my mind the fact that, as late as yesterday afternoon, my surgeon’s office had yet to schedule my pending double mastectomy, port removal and sentinel node injection with visual” with the other hospital.
My Heart is filled with Thanksgiving and Joy
2019 is starting off to be a blessed and joyous year! My heart is filled with thanksgiving and joy. 2018 was a tough year. Really, really tough. The shocking and devastating stage 4 breast cancer diagnosis, and then going through arduous chemotherapy sessions and the aftermath are the most difficult struggles I have experienced in my … Continue reading My Heart is filled with Thanksgiving and Joy
Joy, Faith, Hope, Love, Peace & Rock Bottom
This was the week of Rock Bottom, so there’s no place to go, except up. After last week’s chemotherapy on Thursday, I developed debilitating weakness, dizziness, and shortness of breath. I am extremely weak and oxygen deprived because my red blood cell count is low, and therefore, the oxygen in my blood is also low. …
Life In Introspection 